Changing career from PG OWNER to Developer to project manager

Well with all those hard days, drenching in rain, and tieing up the cover that protects amazon deliveries from rain. I thought to my self, O god. Just open the door so that I can learn coding and learn stuff for an year and my brother would help me and support me for an year. And magically it has happened.. I did sung a song "LIFT Karadey", adanan sani song. and telugu song "Govinda Govinda , nanu bagu cheyi Govinda , and NTR song devuda devua hai bhagavan song. They just gave me some sukhoon. But these songs really made me cry from heart. My eyes got wet and thought all of the good things I used to have and remembered my arogance. But it is good experience now.Then the magic happened. Its like there is God who really listens to our prayers if we pray from the bottom of our hearts. Right now I m embarking in to the journy of coding. While coding i relised I have tried codding before when the CARONA was rampent. I was sitting in my room learning PYTHON coding. I did completed a lot of stuff. Wonder why I have stopped. Right now I have half done with google project management certification. I m confident that I would complete it and will be another feather in my profile. I m also confident that I can complete the scrum and agile certifictions along with google certificaiton. Javascript is huge and vast subject, so taking time to sink in all the code language into my brain. So that when I write jargon of codes. I don't need to go back to verify my basics. My journy, Hostel tutor to WARDEN, => MANAGER => BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT EXECUTIVE => VODAFONE CUSTOMER CARE => COMPUTER SERVICE ENGINEER => PHARMACIST => AMAZON CUSTOMER CARE AND GAMING SPECIALIST => NOW LEARNING PROJECT MANAGEMENT AND CODING. Oh I forgot , the delivery boy during CARONA and before CARONA.. Door to door sales man when I m in hyd , I was 17 at that time. I was a palmist , tried hypnotism, then became preacher , was good pastor after I got married and now I failed that obligation because of my addiction to alcohol. But I m recovring now. I feel that I don't need alcohol, I think I can start my new healthy addiction which is "FITNESS". My knee is not supporting me. I don't want to brusie it by walking long walks. I got to see doctor about it. ahhh i poured my heart today. I m happy so i will end now. OH wait. I have more than 180,000 views on google maps. I m at level 6.. On pinterest I got over 1 million subcribers now it was dow to 10,000. So anyway.. that is all I can write now...

What a beautiful day

Not me ... Its my brother who is getting engaed to this beautiful gal. Who has brains coz she is nerologist. I never experienced a 5 start hotel environment and the way they treat customers. I had bad really bad experience as a customer and also you see those deming short films wherey they treat customer with disrespect. But here it is 5 start experience. Although my brother invitied a person whom I do not like. I got raged but kept my cool, It is his engagement and he gets to decide whom he wants. Well it all went well. No religious stuff and all. My kids had a blast that for sure , Anne and alex get to play in terrace of 5 start hotel, which I would not afford to give that kind of experience. It is really very great experience as kids point of view. So it now official my brother now can't do bachelor stuff anymore. Hehehe welcome to the club bro... It is good to write about my day. I think I m liking it.

My day

A typical day. I had lot to think about. I have contemplated on my alochol addiction. I have thought about my chatting addiction. I have thought about my phone addiction. I think She is right about fitness addiction. That is a healthy addiction. Shopping is a grevious activity that I m not fond of. But My brother requested me to be with him. I don't know why. He knows better than me. He has good taste in dresses. But Still assisted but my sleep apnea took over and I slept or dozed of most of the time. But I m surprised to see a paid of shoe costing more that 15,000. So my brother would be walking on 15000 from tommorow presumably. When I said is it worth it. His excuse is that they cost way more than here in the USA. I can see a spending frenzy which I have not fond of. I don't know understand how people spend so much of money just to show some lue vutan or some van husen or some brank. I believe the quality is different or I can't really tell. But in every mall they have same shops, same peter england, same van husesn, same jokey or what ever. But every mall have same bran shops. Only those brands are getting good sales I tell you that. I like the coconut drink. It is very tasty. I should plan something like that in my shop. It would be great idea. Drinking and chatting are the addictions/demons that I should be fight. They are the demons that I have welcome into my life. I need to throw them away. I got to clean up or cleanse things. I think I will start my book reading habbit again. But nothing interests me anymore as they have the same content which I have read years ago. Nobody got anything that challenging ... WEll my day ended with 2 cigarates and quarter bottle of KYRON.

Exploring the Unexplored

You know sometimes you feel like to go and just go some random place. Where you know bobody and no nothing of that place. Just keep on walking and watching all those roads and building and all that that place has to present. It give me excitement. I want to repair my avenger and go on long ride this time. The explorer side of me asking me to take a trip to Leh Ladak or some place. I am not sure I am physically fit to do that. I need to have some plan and discipline to do these sort of stuff.

Knowing Thy Self

Sometimes it obthers me a lot. I started to think do I really know myself. My highs and my lows, my positive thinking and my negetive thinking. I can't just keep bitching on my alcohol addiction and play the self blame game and get adjusted to the fact I m beyond curable. Or is the fact that I m very comfortable hurting myself and slowly degrading into the world of destruction. A day ago I had missed an accident, and I m drunk at that time. It is thy god that helped me to watch over the other side and I backed off and merely escape a hit by a train. Is it a divine warning that says, I m watching you. How is that so happened that I heard sermon and that preacher said how one of his fellow pastor died even though given multiple of chances. And I felt I am being warned. Living to the expecation of other is never achievable. I m wondering living to the standard of God(in my case YAHWEH/JESUS) is also a arduous task. It is simple to say yes I have done it and accept that I am failure. But it would never be easy to start rectifying or correcting the mistakes done by thyself. Art thou the reason why I m here. Alas all is vain says the great king solmon. Is it really vain to live , Is it really vain to strive hard and achieve something and end up in the pit that is waiting for you. Is it really useless that what ever had done , been done before and we are here because we were to be. With all those questions, how can I be righteous person?. Is it that hard?. Seriously, is it harded that those magicians learning a new trick for years to master?. Is it that hard to do con, as those con artist does with ease. Is it that harder than they been dedicatedly discipling themselves to be that master of their arts. Or it is not that hard but only the ego that would get hurt and you can't take the blame. Talking of blame, accountability is what this blaming would stop. Since talking about blaming and accountablity, Am I accountable to thyself?. Am I living upto the standard that I want to be?. Am I living the life that I passionatly belive?. I keep thinking I m a failure , when I do not live to my standards. May be that is my I m not presenting myself with new clothes, Or Some party. Drinking is meerly an escape from reality. I know it is my abode. to add to that my chat roleplay adding different kind of mentality or mindset. Answerable to thyself righteous self is the best thing I heard. Yeah, let be accountable to thy righteous self.

Healing Process

It been a while that I have focused on my psychological health. I had discovered my triggering points that leads me to take alcohol. After my talk with her. There are lots to think about and needs lot of changes. It is good that I started walking again in the mornings. Today I did not hear my alaram and missed my 5:00 AM walk time. But I did went for a small 3 rounds from 6:00 to 6:30 AM. I m trying to teach myself a habbit of walking early morning and right after waking up. No matter what time I would wake up. It is good that I be able to do that it is progresive 5th day. I m also trying to learn javascript so it is going at very slow pace. My learning curve is really really low. But at the end of the day. I am able to teach myself with new coding techniques. I see change in my wife behaviour and also my kids behaviour. Or is it that has ignored them all these days and now able to see the light. Don't know can't tell. There are lots of financial challenges, physical and psychological challenges that I need to resolve. I feel now I am getting everything under control. I can not rely on feelings, I got to do it.

Beach trips

Went to beach