Pastor Goal

 Preacher/Pastor

Church :- The term Church The word translated "church" in the English Bible is ekklesia. This word is the Greek words kaleo (to call), with the prefix ek (out). Thus, the word means "the called out ones." However, the English word "church" does not come from ekklesia but from the word kuriakon, which means "dedicated to the Lord."

My Terminology for Church : -
    A group of people that come together to worship, To pray, To support one another in the good and bad, To teach and to learn our walk in accordance with the Biblical Principles. To act as a family which consists of different families. And be a replacement of family for the ones who lost their loved ones by being spiritual family. 

What are my Goals for Church :-

• Build a self sustaining organization that can support the needs of the church members.
• A progressive Growth of each member in all aspects of life including spirituality. 
• A definitive standards that define the level of growth of each believer. 
• A culminate growth where there is no hierarchy but only Holy Spirit is our leader. 
• Removing idolatry and traditions that are not biblical and Establishing biblical traditions. 
• Inspire believers to be leaders and entrepreneurs. Who can live the biblical blessing of you be a giver but not receiver. You be head, not tail. 
• Create growth environment, Where teens, kids, adults every one can grow by learning and by making mistakes and learning from mistakes. 
• Removing cast out of the church and create humanitarian values. 
• Every law is for human betterment, Any law that defies human betterment is not to be observed. 

Dance Ministry :-

• Use inspirational Social movie songs to attract crowd.
• Preach like you preach at the jail. Do not use the word Jesus. 
• Use Story telling technique to help people understand like Jesus used parables when he preached. 
• Address social problems.
• Financial problems
• Why they are poor.
• What made them poor.
• How they became poor. 
• What principles they are not following to become wealthy. 
• How to become rich and wealthy and healthy.
• Family Problems
• Issues regarding Husband & Wife.
• Issues regarding Children future.
• What are their rights from the Government.
• What are their responsibilities. 
• How to raise kids.
• How to handle teens. 
• How to be with adults.
• How to be with married children. 
• Addictions
• How to recognize addiction.
• How to stop addictions.
• Where can they get help.
• Who will help, Is it by Gov or NGO.
• How to find help Centers. 

• Invitation :-
• Repentance 
• First I need to repent of my sins.
• Then share my Journey of repentance.
• Invite people who can relate to my journey to repent. 

Change :-

Change Management :-

    We need a way and a process for believer to adapt his new life after taking baptism. A process of transition from worldly life to spiritual life. Like Paul said be in the but not of the world. 

Points to ponder :-

1. Recognize the issues that needs to be changed.
2. Find solutions to resolve the issues.
3. What emotions that are leading to that sin issue
4. Which desires of the flesh is domination your emotions.
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Google Certification Achievement.

 I did it my way

 

 I have done it. Yes sir/Mam. I m on track. My learning curve is finally on track. I have signed up for 2 more courses by META Javascript and HTML &CSS certification. I m going to finish them too and add them to my LinkedIn. I will learn so much like AMBEDKAR. With all his degree and stuff. I will be like him. I will help my people and uplift them.

Journey :-

    It's worth learning. When I started Google Certification. I wasn't sure at all. But my brother JOHN told me to do it. Since I have made a pact , I just listened to him. As I progress I thought by the time he leaves INDIA I can complete this certificate(Did't really know the journey at that time). 

Tough :-

    The journey got tougher when my brother left INDIA. We never shared this much of bond after my voice email to him. It was a disaster but after that I never really cared about completing anything. I Did my Mpharma, I did my BPharma casually. They just happened. I did't really put any effort in it. Even thought I have started studying my degree when I m 28. And Master when I m 35. 

    It got tough because I can take my laptop and run to him and ask to help me out because he is not here in INDIA. I can't just call him and bug him when he is in USA. He got his life, If he is INDIA. I can coz he is here to spend time with us. But Once he goes to USA. I can't bother. So I had to deal with it. I did not really took any help but I feels safe. 

    I thought of not leaving and just go back to my Auto driving or some other  easy stuff. This certification is eating by brains and push me do things I really do not want to do. But I kept pushing pushing and pushing. I see no point but still pushing.

That day :-

    It was Change Management course, the day I heard all about change management and how to handle change and risk management. My perspective changed. I began to see my mistakes. I began to understand why I m feeling to quit. I began to question myself, Why I am feeling to Quit. I used the tips from google certification and started to analyze the data. First Question, What I am feeling, Why I am feeling, What made me feel, What did I do to feel that way, What should I do, What is right thing to do, What do I feel like to do, Is doing what I feel would help me ?. Does doing what is right will help me?. 

    All those questions keep popping in my head and surprisingly the answer were there in my head. So I know the answers and It pushed me. I just done risk analysis, I just done Change analysis, I just done what went wrong, Why it went wrong , What made it go wrong. What do I need to do. It just the answer is right there and could't resist to say NO. The data is factual so my feeling to Quit is because I done nothing better in my entire life. ever since my fall. 

Dawning :-

    It just popped. I got the answers, The NO and Yes, The DO and DON'Ts. I know what is going on. It dawned up on me. After careful analysis, inspire of my heaven drinking every day, Inspite of my addiction of chatting every day.  I turned them into my benefit. I got sleep apnea. I doze in the middle of driving bike or car. I can't stay focused for 15 min. I tried to listen to JOHN and dozed off because it was my sickness. It is because of obesity. So could't focus and lean. This is another factor that I consider quitting. I just did my SWOT analysis. I want to turn my weakness and addictions to strengths. So I used chatting as my waking up tool. I listen to Video Classes, I would jump into chatting as soon as I feel dizzy. Then I would get back studying as soon as I don't feel any dizziness. I tried to stop drinking alcohol, But I was not able to sleep at all.  I could't sleep and my eyes are tiered the screen became blurry, I have to stop and push myself to take rest and then study again. So I used alcohol to sleep. I just drink and then immediately go to sleep. I was able to rest well and focus. Too bad people see it as addiction. Yes I agree sometime no lot of times it going over board. But still It is bad in society view and health perspective. 

That Moment :-

    I have set myself 20th JAN is goal for me to finish Google project management certification. But I did it 1 day late. Because I got  to wait for payment of the course that ate those 2 days. But Still I have done it. It is there, I m officially Google Certified Program Manager. 

A happy Man

 Happiness 

 What does a man want : 

I believe we all want different things in different way. But at the end, we be a happy person, Only on getting what we want.

Why am I happy : 

Well typically, I m bit a appreciator of beauty. Lately I feel like I do have beautiful friends. I have this inferiorty complex that I m dark. And I don't look good. Even thought I was appreciated and got trained little bit as model. I did get compliments by strangers (aunties) when I was young. Like nice black horse, nice black hard fish, etc... I still hated that black part. So I did not took it to my heart as that black still sticks on my face. I wanted to be white, or yellow.. I tried fair and lovely and all kinds of fairness tricks and creams. They are not that good. I got to keep my self clean all the time. There is white privilege for white skin that even they do not keep themselves clean they look good. 

I on the other hand, had to take 7 baths a day. There was a time, I decided to get 2nd looks from people gals, boys, uncles, aunts. I wanted them to stare at me and appreciate. So I took a wow and kept myself clean. Imagine 7 baths a day. A peel off cream to go with it every time when I go out.. 

Pay off time did came, When my best friend saw me from distance and said wow due.  You look so amazing, People can't put a finger on your blackness. So that where I stopped. I did not tried to be beautiful any more. I don't even buy myself pretty clothes or even good clothes. I just use my brother's clothes. Every time comes to India he leaves his clothes. I don't know why but I just use them. I feel like I don't deserve. 

But lately, I m having friends and by looking at them I m feeling I should start my 7 baths a day policy. I m so happy and I know why. Coz I got high...(afroman song).... No I m not high, I don't get high. Infact I don't want to be stones or drink alcohol. 

I m a healthy person with good health, Why ruin this good Wealth. People pay to have health like me. But still I have belly that I need to loose.....

Dream Came true : 

Finally that dream of watching and doing voice chat and video chat came true this morning. Her name is priya she works as tester in Bangalore. I know its a sin, but still I did that thing that I dreamt of... Just keep talking like I m chatting. Woo it was wonderful experience. I m not into her but I m appreciating the fact that I can voice chat now. She speaks Telugu and she is from Anantapuram settled in Bangalore when she was kid. She said she is 36, but does't look 36 at all. Oooo boy I m happy happy happy. I m so happy that I don't feel like I need alcohol to replace my happiness.. Coz it is just makes me feel dizzy. This happiness is bringing me satisfaction and it is natural. I don't need to induce myself some liquid to feel happy.. All my thoughts and fantasies around booze are a waste. If you have a good company that is a good drug.. 

My heart is weeping : 

I m seriously wasting my time. I m suppose to spread the good news and tell how wonderful it is to be with the LORD. I can teach them how to be happy and joyful. Instead I m using alcohol to keep me happy. I don't need, I never needed. I bought that bluff. I like beaches, but I can't just keep looking at it. I got to learn scuba-diving , skewing, 

surfing 

 etc.. all that water sports people do to enjoy. I want to do that. I want to buy a 

beach atv bikes  that goes on sand

 Another one water scooter that I can drive in water...   

I want to do all those things when I go to beach. I want to make a video out of those and put on my YouTube channel. BeachAnand. 

See there are lot of things I can do but I replaced alcohol , replacing all of them. 

I want to go to outreach and preach. 

I want to do dancing ministry where I perform MOB dancing. 

It is so much fun doing all that. 

After learning these project management courses. I will pursue my dream. 

I have lot to talk about but, for today . I m so happy. Coz I got what I wanted. 

for now signing off..

Anand

Potential

 Time Wasted : 

    While I m studying Google Project Management Course. The points that I am learning makes me ponder about the things I have done. I have just wasted pure time. 20 years of my life. Just for chatting and drinking and beaches. There should be a limit and I have crossed that limit and gave out signal that I m not interested to construct a good life. So the life I m living is my choice. It is sad that unknowingly many people like me are wasting their pretty life. 

    They Do not plan like me, Just live with what they got and move on. It is really a waste pool of talents and time. The loss of their time and their money and their life. Like mine. I thank God that I am able to see and thank him that when a Man(Woman) who ever wants to turn and get himself right. He is will help and that is what he is doing to me right now.

    I think I am at phase where God is showing what should have been done and what did not happen. It is a lot of waste. I should have applied Lean Sex Sigma rule to my life. That would have recovered a lot of things. But hey what am I to blame myself. Even this life is "Un ka Diya hula hai". It is really very very blessed part. 

I think I have hidden talent of writing stories. With all these years of roleplaying. I think I am good at narrating. I want to make short films and publish them. I know the director or I can be the director. I have money, I can be a producer. I need to find ACTORS. All I need is a crew that can help me make films. I will do that once I have finished this certification. 

Okay that is it for now. 

Had Great X-Mas time.

 I believe this is first time My brother JOHN ever focused on family. The change is positive we all had good time watching TV and more. I also eaten heavyly 1 plate noodles, 1 burger and box of almond biscuits. Daam I got to check my sugar levels.

I created the list of things that I always wanted to do. I need to figure out plan to make them work. I got to set my time table so that everything can come to life. 

I did not participated in Church Service at night nor the noon. I allowed my mother to take care of that. I think I need to focus on myself and my character so that I can be that righteous Preacher and Shepherd that I always wanted to be. 

From Jan 2023, I think I will bring in that Pastor in me and that coder in me and that fitness guy and the musician oh the dancer.

I have to make plans to start my dancing ministry. That be an awesome way to spend time. You would not know time and will have good exercise. To do list is to find good dancing institute that can teach me to dance and create Flash MOB dances in city square. I don't know if I go solo or group. But I can stand and share testimony and preach the Good news to the lost children who are loosing hope now a days. This is my all time dream.

Well coding to become an ethical hacker so that I can feel myself at power. I want to hack into system and have a good peek and see and learn. those great codes.

Playing guitar at first and sing few songs then slowly start to dance would be a good way to attract crowd. Well I really should have done that when I had opportunity. I had funds and I had time and I had resources. 

Sin that worth it :

Boy one mistake and it cost you a lot. But what if that mistakes worth it. Give at the price I pay. I don't know mistake a sin worth it. Is it that good experience to commit that sin and suffer life long. Well my SIN opened new doors and it has pushed me to go through things I always wanted to. Whom am I going to blame. Should I blame myself for committing that SIN. Should I be happy that because of that I am able to pursue the dream of self sustainability of hostels and churches. I don't know. We got to see.

Self Sustainability:

My life dream is to create a hostel that is self sustainable not depend on donations but create an income stream that generates enough funds to run a hostel and copy it to whole Andhra Pradesh. 

My other dream is to make Church self sustainable not ask alms from the politicians or rich people. But have resources of our own. I did succeeded at this by saving all the weekly donation box and not to use any of the money that people put in the donation box and open that once year on Christmas. I had success at that. I failed to put in the tithes but boy if I did, I would have enough money to make Christmas a blast. 

Legacy: 

I wanna leave legacy of the things that I accomplish to my children, So when they grow up they won't be running after or chasing some chicks or boys. But to focus on building an Empire that lasts and survives and thrives through difficulties. I wanna build 10 industries that can bring tithes to church and help community. 

Community : 

I had a dream of building community like at the time of apostles, where every one sold off their lands and belonging and put them at the feet of apostles so that they can bring better glory and build a Equality. Where there is no salary to people. Their food their house and their needs would be met by the community and all people are treated equally no special treatment for manager or janitor. Where every one is same and every one got to work to prosper the community resources. There will be a wing to take care of kids and children. There will be addictions support, there will be talent improving training sessions. There will be community challenges where people show of their extra skill and so on. I need to clearly write it out before I can explain it to anyone. 

Well this is it for now, I had good time on Christmas. 

Done Google first step certification of project management

 I have prepared some list that I wanted to do. I have these thoughts and never really penned it. I am able to put all my thoughts together and penned them down. 

Pastor Things

Do I really want to lead life as pastor. Shepherding these people. Am I righteous enough to lead people into righteous life of Jesus. I don't think so. I do not have the character to lead these people. 

Should I Quit then. No, Why did't I thought this through. I even taught myself sleep without a fan, Leave the AC. I can sit and bit by mosquitoes and still feel nothing. I thought I become a preacher who goes to remote areas and preach the good news and help people realize that there is hope for all of us. There is a God that gives us second chance. 

Healing is what every one is selling these days on TV and Miracles are what they market. They ignored the GOOD NEWS. Which is we have father who understand our inequalities and who understands that we are not perfect and still loves us. If I tell that no body give me money. If I can perform Miracle, then people get attracted wanted to have a miracle in their life too. So that draws them near. I can't deny the fact that JESUS did do some miracles, But at the same time, when parties requested for Miracle he outright denied and called them Sinners. 

So how do I deal this pastor thing. Don't know the answer and can't tell anything as of now. 

Changing career from PG OWNER to Developer to project manager

Well with all those hard days, drenching in rain, and tieing up the cover that protects amazon deliveries from rain. I thought to my self, O god. Just open the door so that I can learn coding and learn stuff for an year and my brother would help me and support me for an year. And magically it has happened.. I did sung a song "LIFT Karadey", adanan sani song. and telugu song "Govinda Govinda , nanu bagu cheyi Govinda , and NTR song devuda devua hai bhagavan song. They just gave me some sukhoon. But these songs really made me cry from heart. My eyes got wet and thought all of the good things I used to have and remembered my arogance. But it is good experience now.Then the magic happened. Its like there is God who really listens to our prayers if we pray from the bottom of our hearts. Right now I m embarking in to the journy of coding. While coding i relised I have tried codding before when the CARONA was rampent. I was sitting in my room learning PYTHON coding. I did completed a lot of stuff. Wonder why I have stopped. Right now I have half done with google project management certification. I m confident that I would complete it and will be another feather in my profile. I m also confident that I can complete the scrum and agile certifictions along with google certificaiton. Javascript is huge and vast subject, so taking time to sink in all the code language into my brain. So that when I write jargon of codes. I don't need to go back to verify my basics. My journy, Hostel tutor to WARDEN, => MANAGER => BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT EXECUTIVE => VODAFONE CUSTOMER CARE => COMPUTER SERVICE ENGINEER => PHARMACIST => AMAZON CUSTOMER CARE AND GAMING SPECIALIST => NOW LEARNING PROJECT MANAGEMENT AND CODING. Oh I forgot , the delivery boy during CARONA and before CARONA.. Door to door sales man when I m in hyd , I was 17 at that time. I was a palmist , tried hypnotism, then became preacher , was good pastor after I got married and now I failed that obligation because of my addiction to alcohol. But I m recovring now. I feel that I don't need alcohol, I think I can start my new healthy addiction which is "FITNESS". My knee is not supporting me. I don't want to brusie it by walking long walks. I got to see doctor about it. ahhh i poured my heart today. I m happy so i will end now. OH wait. I have more than 180,000 views on google maps. I m at level 6.. On pinterest I got over 1 million subcribers now it was dow to 10,000. So anyway.. that is all I can write now...